Lonesome
From the time we get up in the morning until we go to bed, we have things pulling on us. There are multiple deadlines that need to be met, and everyone seems to want something from us. We feel overwhelmed at times and wish for some quiet time. When we are finally afforded the opportunity and the house is silent, do we enjoy it? Or do we end up feeling lonesome?
We spend the majority of our time at work with mere acquaintances. Throughout the day our hearts may long for our loved ones, but we are surrounded by chaos at work. We just need a minute! Until we don’t …
Silence can be deafening to those who do not like to be alone with their thoughts. I’ve been there with hours spent on the lawn mower reflecting on things in my life. For me, I was lonesome without my daughter when she had to be away, and I welcomed her with open arms for “the biggest hug ever” every single time she returned home. This was something we both looked forward to upon her return home, and she would run straight into my awaiting arms with the biggest smile on her face!
What a sweet reunion!
I can see her now with her golden locks bouncing as she scrambles out of the vehicle and clinches her fists as she starts to run. Bright blue eyes widen in anticipation and an excited smile forms on her face. She runs straight into my arms! Giggling, I spin her around and tell her how much I love her!
That vision is as clear now as it was 20 years ago.
And yes, I was lonesome without the house full of laughter from my firstborn baby girl.
Eight years later, her sister joined us! We were so overjoyed when God allowed our little miracle baby to come into this world. What a blessing both of our daughters have been and always will be! Now our daughters will have a forever friend in each other as sisters! When once I worried about my oldest walking alone in life, I no longer had to think of that. She and her sister now have each other, and I rest in the reassurance of this for them both. I know how much my sister meant to me, and I am thankful knowing despite the eight years between them, they are close! They have each other!
Ah, but my youngest was, indeed, lonesome when her big sister had to go away every other weekend. We tried to fill the void until her playmate returned home. They would play fight with each other or even sometimes temporarily be mad at each other for taking something out of their rooms. This was quickly forgiven, and all was right in their worlds again as they giggled and played together once more.
Both girls knew of my online friends and eventually spent time with them in person as well. Later, they, too, developed friendships with people they met online. When once they may have tried to fill the void and loneliness they felt at various times by occupying themselves online, the friendships grew until they became the very best of friends. I have been present when my daughters met their online friends for the very first time in person! In fact, I videoed both times they met their online friends for the very first time.
The world wide web can be a very useful tool, indeed!