Lost
There was once a time I felt safe and secure in your love. When I used to get lost in your eyes, I’m getting lost now in wondering who you are. For years we’ve lived this wonderful life on the outside appearing to be the most perfect couple, and everyone commented about how much you love me and how perfect our little family was. Now I’m left wondering if after the dust has settled if we’ll even be a family at all.
I try to be a good person and do the right thing. I’ve prayed and asked for guidance from God, and for months now I’ve heard: “Be still …” and so I have. As I stand in the mist of the storm raging around me, I’m getting knocked around and knocked down. Yet each time, I get back up and try again. Each blow that comes leaves me breathless and weak, yet through my tears, I whisper my love for you and what has been lost and know that it can be found again in each other if that is what we truly want.
I feel surrounded by lies, deceit and betrayal, and I don’t know how to get out of this pit. I run to the far side and scream wondering if anyone hears me, can anyone come rescue me now? No one answers, and so I run to the opposite end and cry, reaching up with all of my might for someone to hold on to in order to pull me out of this pit of depression that I’ve been living in.
And then as I fall to my knees, crumbling to the ground, as I lay there sobbing, my Jesus wipes away my tears and picks me up into His strong arms to carry me out of the darkness and into the light. His light. I don’t have to feel lost any more. He has found me. He has rescued me. When lies fall all around me, He is truth. When I feel unloved, He wraps me in His unconditional love.
For once I was lost, but now I’m found.
June 27, 2014 @ 9:22 am
Your website is beautiful, and so is this story. Such a powerful reminder that God is always there for us, any time of day and year, as a listening ear, as a helpful hand or as a presence to wipe away our fears. Well written!
June 27, 2014 @ 9:24 am
Thank you so much, Elizabeth, for all that you said.
July 3, 2014 @ 10:16 pm
Thank you, Elizabeth. There is no greater love than that of our Lord and Savior.
June 27, 2014 @ 11:41 am
As I began reading this, my thought was, “Oh, she needs Jesus to pick her up!” … then I read on and saw that He DID indeed pick you up and wipe your tears! HE is faithful when all others are not.
It is so good to be “found” in Him !!
Blessings from one of your many FMF blogger buddies!!
July 3, 2014 @ 10:15 pm
Thank you, BoniLady. Jesus is an ever faithful friend, and His love endures forever.
June 27, 2014 @ 11:54 am
Such great words. It makes my heart sing when people trust in Jesus.
July 3, 2014 @ 10:15 pm
It is a beautiful thing to trust in the Lord and watch His will unfold.
June 27, 2014 @ 2:41 pm
What a beautiful post. I think that sometimes we all feel that way.
July 3, 2014 @ 10:14 pm
I do believe you’re right, Ellen.
June 27, 2014 @ 6:36 pm
Shirley, your post was gripping and reflects real-life struggles. But I also see hope, and my prayer is that hope and restoration will be a reality. God can do it. If we are willing. I love how God rescues and restores. We truly are “found” in Him! Loved how you described that in your last paragraph. Take care, Katy
July 3, 2014 @ 10:14 pm
Thank you so much, Katy. Your words really meant a lot to me, and I have been clinging to them since you wrote them. I do believe God is able, and I have been enjoying watching Him move in this situation.